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Is there a pill for every ill or is it the case, as the Verve would say, that the drugs don’t work? This piece in the Irish Times Weekend makes interesting reading. The sheer amount of pills being popped to combat mental illness is mind-numbing (non Xanax induced, presumably). Are we being over-prescribed or is it, as the IT piece mentions, a product of a more effective diagnosis of mental illness?

Almost 20 years ago, I checked into St. Vincent’s Psychiatric Hospital as an in-patient. Already looking at life through the fog of depression and depersonalisation I didn’t want to lose any further touch with reality and refused to be put under any drug regime. Surprisingly enough, I wasn’t strapped into coat with buttons on the back and my therapy mainly consisted of talking which – for anyone that knows me – was excruciating. Word association games became the opening gambit of most of my sessions – but I got bored easily and these disintegrated into a sort of Two Ronnies sketch. But there were times when I was swimming in some deep emotional pools that I even wished for a dose of Prozac just to numb the pain. There were other times when I was asked to present my case to a class of student doctors and, looking back now, I realise that doing something so public at that stage was not a good thing, at least for me. My psychiatrist tended to treated me as a person but most of the students saw me either as a footnote in a series of case histories or, even worse, as someone with a particularly contagious disease – it’s a bit unnerving to see 20 pairs of eyes all staring at the floor.

What really kept me from disappearing any further into my own private cloud were two occupational therapists on their first assignment. I know that a psychiatric ward wasn’t the first choice for either of them but their sheer energy, enthusiasm and desire to make a difference meant that they saw us as individuals and not cases to be treated. They were able to drag us all down to the therapy room, even the most catatonic and, believe me, there were some patients that would make the Easter Island statues look manic. The therapy room was designed as a space to keep your hands busy and your mind calm – bit like a monastery. We made things – there was weaving and I probably know more about macramé than I ought. We had relaxation therapy, to this day the sound of the sea makes me both want to nod off and to kick a hippy and if I hear any more whale songs I’m joining the Japanese fleet. But the most useful part, not just for me, was the group sessions. Unlike the anally-retentive students, most of the patients shared their pain – from the manic, tourettes induced, expletive-ridden shouts to the mumbling, stumbling, half-whispers and grunts (mostly me).

And then there were the group outings. It wasn’t quite a McMurphy hijacking in One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest but the number 7 bus into town on a Wednesday afternoon became our own version of the Great Escape, although I’m not sure how comfortable the other passengers were with getting up close and personal with this sort of care in the community. I remember we saw Ghostbusters in the Savoy after a show of hands in group therapy, “who wants to sit in the dark and laugh at Bill Murray telling dick jokes?” The more neurotic of us huddled down in our seats, cowering at the overacting and when the Marshmellow Man appeared there were shouts for mammy (probably mostly from me). Although, there was the time that a couple of us led a breakout after tea one evening, crossing the Merrion Road to the M1 pub like some scene from a Woody Allen sketch. It didn’t take long for the staff to find us, mainly because the bar staff spotted our hospital wrist bands, that and the fact that one of our more paranoid members locked himself in the bathroom (not me this time). Funnily enough, it was shortly after this that a few of us were released back into the wild and only had to turn up on day release. And, thanks to the caring staff, I left there with an ability to cope and two hand-made stools.

There are no easy answers when it comes to treating mental illness with drugs. I don’t use them and don’t think I need to but I saw some seriously disturbed people who wouldn’t have been able to get out of bed without some sort of medicinal intervention. But I also saw people who were given the totally wrong drugs that made them infinitely worse and set back their recovery in a big way. I think, in general, that we are over-prescribed drugs (and I know a couple of people in the pharmaceutical industry, so apologies for trying to reduce your profits) and sometimes it’s a bit too easy for doctors to issue a script for a pill. That said, the Irish Times piece is timely and hopefully will contribute to a broader debate on how we should treat people with mental problems. The first thing we need to do is treat them like people.

 

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Caro

“There are no words…”

“Language is inadequate…”

And yet, and yet there are words.

The sounds we make to remember you

form a cushion to ease the blow,

somewhere soft to rest our heads

as we reconcile ourselves to loss and regret.

The words that you gave;

encouragement, advice, aspiration, engagement

all conspire in an outwelling of emotion,

a rising tide that enables us to float

buoyed by your gentle presence,

infectious laughter and endless stories.

The sounds, the words, the language – all yours.

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Northern Lights, or what do we do with problem called, em, Lyra, was a last minute substitute  for Sam Kean’s The Disappearing Spoon, which proved hard to get (mainly due to the paperback only being release this month, I think). While I can’t compare the two books, I can say that I was pleasantly surprised by Northern Lights as I’m not a huge fan of fantasy fiction (Tolkein being an exception).

This is a world a bit like ours, university lecturers who think they know everything (hello to Moore McDowell), a church that insists on a monopoly of “truth”, downtrodden gypsies and, of course, talking polar bears. But bears aren’t the only animals that talk, Lyra, like all humans is born with a daemon. Some kind of furry creature that can change shape at will, can talk and feel everything its human feels – a bit like a politician at election time. There is an invisible bond between humans and daemons (think Fianna Fail and property developers) and when one dies so does the other (unlike Fianna Fail who are obviously some abomination of nature).

Pullman’s fantasy world is just as difficult for young children to navigate as our own. Adults that are supposed to protect children end up damaging them or worse. The official world seems to help or turn a blind eye to the Gobblers – child catchers intent on trying to separate children from their daemons – a bit like official Ireland and child-abusing clergy.

And like our world, some parents are not averse to using their children to gain positions of power. Poor Lyra, along with her daemon Pantalaimon, has to contend with both a mother and a father who wish to do her harm in order to further their own ambitions. Not only that but she was abandoned in a stuffy university (Oxford) to be brought up by the dons. But Lyra possesses her own qualities and she sees off many adversities in her quest (all fantasy fiction has to have a quest) to free the children taken by the Gobblers and also to, as she thinks, rescue her father from a frozen prison near the North Pole.

Pullman is a consumate writer, his characters may not have much depth but they allow the story to move at a pace and the reader’s attention doesn’t flag. He also has the skill in persuading us to suspend our disbelief (Bears that make armour from the sky, witches, a talking grey goose) and buy into the story. And he doesn’t think much of organised religion, whats not to like? All in all a pleasant read and if I see the other two books knocking around a bookstore (its just a shame Waterstones has closed its covers) I may just have my daemon (a half-bee called Eric) pick them up.

Check out the other members of the BBC for their views: Lily, Marian, Marie, Lorna, Val, Jenn, Edie, Catherine, Jenny, SusanC, Winifred, Ann, Susan, Dee and Tommy who suggest the book.

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Road Runner

So long, sucker

Meep, meep. That was me on Sunday as I fairly raced charged plodded through the Phoenix Park in an attempt to finish this – Great Ireland Run. I wasn’t quite chased by Wile E Coyote (or any other sales rep from Acme Inc) but I did beat a brown bear and a bottle of tequila. However, nobody likes a smart-arse, yes you, pushing the double-decker buggy with two kids on board passing me uphill at 8km, ya fit bastard. With over 10,000 runners, in all sorts of (un)dress, on a twisty course, the race resembled nothing more than a giant Benny Hill sketch.

In the spirit of the Oscars I would, tearfully, like to thank all my sponsors – Dave W, Dave H, Dave S, Paul, Chris, DC, Vin, Kevin, Johnny, Nicky between you the Hospice in Harolds Cross is now better off by €400. I would also like to thank (told you it was like the Oscars) all the people who showed up on Sunday to offer their support to the runners.

Some of these people would have been there to cheer on specific participants but others were just there to encourage and gee-up us poor stragglers. The generosity of spirit that Irish people sometimes show can be genuinely moving and surprising. If there were only some way we could bottle that spirit and use it positively then this country would be a much better place to live in, regardless of our economic mess.

If you really want to know how I did, check out the Great Ireland Run website, my number is 2110 and you can look it up in the race results. And my next challenge? Well, after sinking a crate of beer I’m thinking of entering this - Calcutta Run 2010. Unfortunately, it is run in Blackhall Place and not actually in Calcutta but there is a bbq and drinks afterwards so that’s good enough for me. Why not join me and work up a thirst?

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As a glimpse of a post-apocalypic future, The Road, directed by John Hillcoat with a script by Joe Penhall, could yet be regarded as a cinematic cousin of Waiting for Godot. While Vladimir and Estragon wait fruitlessly for a Godot that never arrives, the Man and the Boy set out on a journey “south” that seems to have no end. In both cases the days seem full of endless repetition with only the occasional encounter to enliven proceedings.

The landscape in The Road is beyond bleak, ash falls from the sky thanks to fires that never seem to go out and earthquakes are frequent. There is no vegetation, no animal life and, seemingly, no hope. Yet, through this desolation the Man and the Boy plod, day after depressing day. They pick up what food they can, mostly mouldy, water is heated and sieved through socks. The Man (superb performance by Viggo Mortensen) seems to shrink visibly day-by-day as he tries to steer his son (Kodi Smit-McPhee)  from childhood to adult – a retrieved comic gives way to a gun with one bullet and the unmistakable inference that, if he has to, he must use on himself.

While most of the population appears to have died, the father and son manage to meet up with various pieces of detritus, most of whom are hostile, such as the gangs of maraudering cannibals with a taste for young flesh. The Father and Son break into a house that could be the one owned by the family from the Texas Chainsaw Massacre, where rounded up survivors are now being farmed for food.

They encounter Ely (Robert Duvall), a typically cantankerous old man of the west who denounces God and clings to life and hope. A thief (Michael K. Williams) steals their pitiful possessions but has the tables turned. In both cases the Boy reminds the Man that just because society has broken down it doesn’t mean that basic humanity can be forgotten. The Son lives up to the ideal that the Father has instilled in him – to carry the fire of hope inside – even as the Father falls into despair.

The film is not quite relentlessly depressing. The Man has flashbacks to a happier time with his pregnant Wife (Charlize Theron) just before the world turns bad. But as the Father and Son travel down the road the flashbacks get darker until the fateful day that sets them out on their epic journey. The real uplift comes from the relationship between the Man and the Boy as they struggle to survive in an uncompromising world. Their love for each other is truly unconditional and mutually dependent. The film explores how this relationship is created, strengthened and ultimately tested. The scene in the house of cannibals, with the Father prepared to shoot the Son rather than let him become a victim, is both deeply moving and deeply disturbing.

Smit-McPhee has real ability, he is able to portray some strong emotional bonds without sliding into saccharine cliché. Mortensen is the strong, watchful and practical leader it is around the Boy that the film revolves. While the outdoor fires rage and ash falls it is the fire of hope that the Boy carries within that is the ultimate theme of The Road.There is a compelling scene where he asks a father (Guy Pearce) if he, too, has the fire inside.

The film is by no means perfect. Smit-McPhee is a little too clean and his teeth a little too perfect for someone who has grown up knowing nothing but a lack of food and clean water. The music, by Nick Cave and Warren Ellis, is appropriately melancholic but it is overused, a complaint that applies to most modern film compositions. Equally, the episodic nature of the narrative may not be to everyone’s taste. But these are minor quibbles. This is a film to witness on the big screen but there will be rewards from repeated viewing when the DVD is released.

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